Today was the most hurting day I had from my beloved boifren . In th morning some ppl ask me whether I ask for break with him and we broke off ordy or nt . Damn I was so broke , I almost broke down , I was sick today , feeling dizzy and kept coughing , feel like fainting . And just nw when I ask him whether he stil luvs me or nt , he says no . And it so piercing through my heart when I read th MSG . Now , I feel like some idiotic person loving a person that won't love her back.. I'm sick , I'm sick of problems , I maeb th firestarter but I am now a new person . Why wunt he gave me th last chance. Just last and i try do my best to show my lovee. I feel imma stranger to him tht will nvr love me bck . I just arghh , feel like gving up but I won't . Damn , feel so idiotic ,sot n suchaa dumb ass loving a guy like him !!!!! Whats wrong with me !!! N today my ph was super silent .
If your reading ths, guy , it's up to you lah Kay , I try do my best but if it doesn't weeks idk what else to do . I got no more werds. I'm just so broke , broke , and really2, heartbroken . Veryy. Thanks fr everything .
Monday, March 21, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
HAESH ; 08/02/11-09/02/11
Yesterday , was my saddest day of my life and it was the painest heartache i ever had. Firstly , at school , i got scolded by my rockclimbing tcher/eng tchr, ms Nurliyana and my form tcher , Ms Huang . Ms N " why are my rockclimbers standing ? It`s not a laughing matter bideway. "
Ms Huang " nextme don`t stand k ? you're a classmonitor. " In class *FAILED HISTORY,GEOG AND MALAY , FCK* Then , after school i was in a hurry to go to tuition, Aftr tuition I wanted to take th bus but i forgot to bring my wallet and ended up walkin back home.Then , I got A call from eka's mum , picked up and told me what my mum send message to eka. BLABLABLA. at last , i cried at home alone , calling hisyam , sharing my problems , criedcriedcried lyk one crazy person . My batt went flatt , and my phone called accidently ended. I got a msg frm my mum sayin " i got bf blablabla". fought with my mum and dad. ARGH. i ask for break with him and he stil doesn`t wanna let me go, he cried and i didn`t knw , syaz called me and told me not to break or else she will cut her fcking ROPEBURN. and TODAY , 09/02/11 , MUMDAD ANGRY COZ I BLOCK THM AT FACEBOOK. AND FCCCKKK ! IDK WHUS WRONG OR RIGHT , IDK HU I AM TO PEOPLE. IDK WHT SHALL I DO NEXT , IDK IF I SHUD SHARE IT WITH MY FRENS OR MY FAMILY . IDK IDK IDK . IDK WHO CARES FOR ME. I LIVE IN A LYF OF COMPLICATED RIGHT NOW , THS VERY HOURS , MINS AND SECS. I JUST SO USELESSS RYT . I WAN TO DIE TODAY SINCE ITS 9/03/2011 . MY BDAE DATE BUT NOT MONTH. ISN`T IT BETTER . I DONT WANNA TALK TO ANIONE TODAY . IT JUST SUCKSUCKSUCKS . I FEEL LYK KILLING THAT FCKIN GERL ; EKAWULANOKTAVIA ; SHE SUCKS SHE FCK. I WANNA KILL MYSELF !!! I BETTER DIE DIEDIE. NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME AND I KEPT ALL TH PAIN ALL BY MYSELF INSIDE MY HEART , NO ONE EVER KNOES ONI ALLAH S.W.T
Ms Huang " nextme don`t stand k ? you're a classmonitor. " In class *FAILED HISTORY,GEOG AND MALAY , FCK* Then , after school i was in a hurry to go to tuition, Aftr tuition I wanted to take th bus but i forgot to bring my wallet and ended up walkin back home.Then , I got A call from eka's mum , picked up and told me what my mum send message to eka. BLABLABLA. at last , i cried at home alone , calling hisyam , sharing my problems , criedcriedcried lyk one crazy person . My batt went flatt , and my phone called accidently ended. I got a msg frm my mum sayin " i got bf blablabla". fought with my mum and dad. ARGH. i ask for break with him and he stil doesn`t wanna let me go, he cried and i didn`t knw , syaz called me and told me not to break or else she will cut her fcking ROPEBURN. and TODAY , 09/02/11 , MUMDAD ANGRY COZ I BLOCK THM AT FACEBOOK. AND FCCCKKK ! IDK WHUS WRONG OR RIGHT , IDK HU I AM TO PEOPLE. IDK WHT SHALL I DO NEXT , IDK IF I SHUD SHARE IT WITH MY FRENS OR MY FAMILY . IDK IDK IDK . IDK WHO CARES FOR ME. I LIVE IN A LYF OF COMPLICATED RIGHT NOW , THS VERY HOURS , MINS AND SECS. I JUST SO USELESSS RYT . I WAN TO DIE TODAY SINCE ITS 9/03/2011 . MY BDAE DATE BUT NOT MONTH. ISN`T IT BETTER . I DONT WANNA TALK TO ANIONE TODAY . IT JUST SUCKSUCKSUCKS . I FEEL LYK KILLING THAT FCKIN GERL ; EKAWULANOKTAVIA ; SHE SUCKS SHE FCK. I WANNA KILL MYSELF !!! I BETTER DIE DIEDIE. NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME AND I KEPT ALL TH PAIN ALL BY MYSELF INSIDE MY HEART , NO ONE EVER KNOES ONI ALLAH S.W.T
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